I don't think I can get away with saying I'm a happy person, because that probably connotes someone less neurotic and more bubbly, but I am not a sad or depressed personality type in any way. I get really excited for big changes, I like to constantly be in motion in my life, and I'm always looking forward. I usually don't get down on myself or on my life for more than an hour on a bad day.
It just so happens that I've hit a bit of a rough spell here in the past few weeks. I'm feeling pretty down and out, mired in a bunch of disappointments stacked on top of each other. I'm actually positively miserable these days. With nothing going right, the loss of our family dog, Ben and I were looking into moving into a new, renovated apartment unit (within our complex) with a garage, multiple floors, and more windows. It was giving me the positive push to keep on facing every day with something to look forward. We picked out a corner unit that was available and were just waiting on the go ahead from the apartment manager when we learned that it wasn't actually available. They'd highlighted the unit on the list of available spaces erroneously. It's actually an apartment used as an office for the contractor. All of the other available spaces are not as optimal - they're not corner units, they're sandwiched in darker spaces or busier streets in the complex. We got our hopes up for zilch.
Cue the hysterical tears this evening. I felt that the last thing I was clutching to to make the dark, cold days of this season seem bearable, just slipped away. We had already made plans for the garage space, I'd mentally decorated the apartment, I was downloading the address change form and going over my "things to do" list in my head.
I know that I need to just buck up, greet my favorite holidays (fast approaching) with a smiley face and know that there is an end to this tunnel - I just can't see it yet. We'll find another apartment unit that we love. We'll get the garage. We'll get the "wood" floors and granite counters. It'll happen. Things in my life outside of apartment hunting will get better too. Because that's the way life works.
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