Sometimes I feel like my stress container fills up and overflows and infects everything in my life. I guess that compartmentalization only works when your compartments are not full to the brim. This weekend has been one of those much needed down-time weekends to empty out my stress compartments so that I don't dissolve into an anxious pile of worry next week.
I don't really have that much going on, but when you add up one million little annoyances and stressors, it starts to feel like one big disaster. I was taking care of my injured cat last week while Ben was still away. I had a few big work events that I had to attend. I had to pick up Ben from the airport during rush hour traffic (a massive pet peeve/anxiety-inducing event for me). I started attending some events in anticipation of Portland Fashion Week (this Sept 30th to October 1st) that were in new places with new people. I had a messy house that looked terrible and was adding fuel to the stress fire. I'm waiting on our engagement photos so I can start creating our wedding website and send save-the-dates. I'm struggling with some wedding party issues. I'm trying to book a house for our wedding in Hawaii and the rentals won't get back to me. Ugh.
I definitely can handle each of these items on their own (baby steps), but the intersection of all of them had me wanting to go into a coma until they were all resolved. I am trying to take everything one step at a time to minimize the pile of things that've been bugging me. Next week should be calm at work. I've got a wedding to attend next weekend with Ben that I'm really looking forward to. We should be getting engagement photos back sometime next week so that I can occupy myself with some fun wedding prep. I'm starting to get used to all of these upcoming events and am actually looking forward to a bunch of them this month and in September.
Last night we just sat outside in the 90 degree heat and barbecued, a definite relaxing de-stress activity. It felt nice to get some sun, chat with Ben, and relax. Here's to more of that!